i dont want to ....

i heard something today .
something that pull me back to reality .
it is ugly but im glad someone told me the truth . and thank you ah girl for being there when someone spill the news .

 Ya Rabbi sumpah wei lega sangat hati ni bila i can told her nothing but the truth that goes in my mind .. she is one of my blessing . if you read this i want to thank you earnestly and thank you for letting me spill my mind and free my mind out of this mess .

i may not said this out loud
but im a mess .
a literal mess .
but dont you worry im a mess you can wipe it clean . lol ((iklan sabun basuh pinggan))

cemana ek nak cakap .
tapi aku terlalu biasa dapat agak or sense something was not right . dan selalunya tekaan aku tu betul gila babeng .
aku suka teka teki .
malah apa aku tulis ni penuh dengan teka teki yang aku tak mahu sesiapa tahu .
i might left some clues here and there but you will never know if this is for you or for someone else  .
hanya aku tahu .
senang cerita aku tukang cerita yang kedekut .
aku peluah yang takut .

idk even know if the news i heard today was nothing but true .
but deep inside i know it might be true to some extend .
it were sad really . Truly sad and i dont find wonder in guessing on this riddle correctly .

i dont wish to finish this post .
i dont want to even think about today or about you .

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TERIME KASIH,MEMBACA KISAH SUKESUKISEDIHSADISCACIMAKI SAYE

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Bi--- rasa

today i see another pink skies
its been already two days
the sky looks the same
i wonder do you just amaze as i am

berpadu tapak aku
berjalan mencari fikiran
Ah, bukan untuk aku
buat apa lagi mencari2
memaksa takdir .

oh dear how i like that blue thing pop out my message
i feel like you really care
at least once .
i like you i like you i like you
then I realised

apa bukan untuk aku bukan untukku
apa baik buat mu baik buat mu



Bi-rasa adalah sesuatu yang aku tulis untuk menunjukkan kadang2 kita terkeliru dengan bahasa sendiri dan perasaan sendiri . maka terjadilh Bi- rasa ((pronunciation bai-ra-sa))

i think all of this ada double meaning lah??? hahahhahaha okbai

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TERIME KASIH,MEMBACA KISAH SUKESUKISEDIHSADISCACIMAKI SAYE

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wish

its raining and im on my bed , curling and wondering .
if i act fine will it be fine?
if i act tough , can i get tougher?

im not either stay or leave
im not either watch and leave
im not either happy or sad .
im in between where the sun not really shines and the moon not really lit .

the ticklish sound of the rain
sound the best.
the sound brings back memories .
the good the bad and regret.

then i realised something.
im not really me .
im a part of everybody that came and leave a piece of them in me .
but i do hope you stop leaving your piece in me but i also do not want you stop .
indecisive and greedy i guess .

if i had 3 wishes to make.
you will be the last wish i wish .
because the last wish is the most important wish .
i wish , you wish for me .
that for sure ,
 a greedy wish .

something inside me saying
if your loved ones are happy .
what more should you wish?
then i decide ,
ill keep my last wish till one day you not feeling happy and full .
until that day , until that day .
until that day keep being happy with your choice because i thought maybe
maybe the last wish i should use for myself instead  .
but you know , i wont .

the last wish is for you .
and always yours .

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TERIME KASIH,MEMBACA KISAH SUKESUKISEDIHSADISCACIMAKI SAYE

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