Saturday, March 11, 2017

march and me

assalamualaikum dear all . (eceh)

Alhamdulillah . Allah bless me for another year of living and breathing and chance for me repenting . ok lah kan macam acah lah pulak kan nak blog in all english . tapi mengertilah saya nak MUET ni besok . kene asah bakat sikit walau grammar berterabur ke masuk longkang ke k k k kkk.

Ya Allah . what You claimed were all true . if you give one thing for other you will get rewarded for ten times for things you shared . Today Allah reward me with so much of blessing . Every steps i took indeed a blessing . 
Bangun pagi nak get ready pergi class .. shower favourite kosong .
Turun tangga nampak kucing main atas bumbung and i call them like a total mak kucing  .. macam meh sini sayang meh sini . and guess what they all come to me and jilat2 my fingers and cakar2 my bag .(( this one is true )) ((im not exagerrating at all)) .

there is so much blessing today that i run out of finger to count .
dan SubhanaAllah perancangan Allah memang yang terbaik . Memang kengkonon dalam wishlist nak outing sengsorang tapi roommates insists nak ikut and yes indeed they were a true blessing . tak taulah apa aku buat kalau takde dorang tadi . sorang jaga purse sorang bawakkan makanan sorang rajin melayan . MY ROOMMATES WERE ALL SWEET . oh that i forget to tell you that all my classmates are so cool too they were literally sing a birthday song for me. i love them . saya dapat hug dari cikgu ((lagi sikit nak nangis)) .
pastu Allah bagi rezeki lagi dapat beli Buah Naga dengan Mangga dengan dapat minum slurpee .  I TOTALLY LOVE THIS .hahhahahaha
pastu beli KFC  dapat free fries 😂😂😂😂😢 .
this was my birthday experience dekat tangkak ni . and my friend gave me Pizza to ganti my request for rm1 tempura . so nice ah my friend .
and i feel grateful to all my friends for the sweet wishes . you guys are sweet and cute and and and all the goodness come in a pack .

pastukan tadikan akak aku datang melawat and i swear i cry my heart out . ok aku ni memang pakar nangis bab family ni . pastu lagi  video call pulak dengan mak abah . haa time tu memang air terjun yang mengalir . 😂😂😂😂😅😅😅😅😢😢😢😢 . and you know how simplest word from your father breaks your heart ((in a good way)) he said to me " semoga sentiasa hormat orang tua, semoga rajin solat and and and much much later after the crying scene he said abah doakan alma kat sana baik baik belaka ." 


it is true . the greatest gift is a blessing from your parents . parents are the greatest gift of all . being away from them is suck but somehow it teach me to appreciate them better in life . Ya Allah , im a sinner but yet you give me everything i need in life . Alhamdulillah

Almahera . Happy birthday . 😋
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Friday, January 27, 2017

I lived (part 2)

okay okay okay
i have a free time now as home now for Chinese New Year . yay

as promised , i will tell you how i view one republic - i lived  as for now , at least .

okay okay .
the particular wordings that got me having a different view on this song is

// Hope that you fall in love, and it hurts so bad
The only way you can know is give it all you have
And I hope that you don't suffer but take the pain
//

yah . this . ALL THESE GOT ME HAVE DIFFERENT VIEW ON THIS SONG . AND IT KIND OF GET TO ME DEEPLY .

by being a normal person , i think having a crush on this age is okay and normal . ((even im ugly for you )) ((everyone can have a crush)) ((but you should focussing on studies)) ((whatever, you only live in teenage years once)) .

gosh too much monologue . 😂😂😅
okay back to the story .

i kind of have a big crush on this boy,
a big kind of crush
a crush that literally crushed me which i expected it will be . ((not his fault btw))
not a suprised as im aware of myself of how incompetence i am to him .
((me so not lawa))((not even cute))((have jerawat and scars pulak tu))((short))((gigi tak rata))((jari gemuk))
compared to him
whose, have everything in him that makes me fall too deep into the pit .

okay back to story (again) and how that song get to me (in conversation)

" Hope that you fall in love, and it hurts so bad"

my reply : yes . i fell once at the length of his fingers and how his shoulder drop and how he enjoy and live his moment and it kind of hurt but  i still breathing and eating fine and have decent sleep and and and all the blessing from Allah . Alhamdulillah .


"The only way you can know is give it all you have"

my reply : yes i literally gave it all .  I mean i did the most embarassing thing and yet a desperate act . I confessed to him (my very first time) and this is no joke . I dm'ed him on twitter on one fine day . and maybe after a while he replied it and and by that moment i am screwed . Dont get me wrong , but he is so kind (im not telling you this because he is my crush, but he just really is)
i mean getting a reply from your crush is kind of big deal for me . after he replied , i sent him another dm and he kindly replied me with empathy ((im pathetic)) . He reject me in the most nicest way , i think . But im so glad by confessing to him at least i know for once in my life , i am living instead of existing. ((wow)) 😂😂😂🐹


"And I hope that you don't suffer but take the pain"

my reply : ya i dont suffer that much 😲😢 and i take the pain just as you suggested .





yah dear this is my second view on this song .
i think after heard it for 678 times (this one tipu) ,, i think this is my themed song in life .
some words in this song got me inspired on life . i know i can love another song but this one has special place in my heart . special congratulation and a big clap from me to the all individuals involved in making of I Lived by One Republic. 



im sorry to disappoint you but after i wrote the last paragraph on top , i realise the best words in life would be the words of Allah .
so this song will fall to last place if it was compared to Kalamullah. 

yet still
I Lived - One Republic
is my Song for Lyfe .

thank you and goodmornight .
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