basically this is not my first post on my blog because i have revert all my posts back to draft because i find it so immature ((its not like im that mature ,blegh)) and it just will bring more harm than good ,
two thousands sixteen
so far have been such a blessing and year of thinking for me,
every year was actually a blessing
( my sister got married / my spm result / my family health / my sisters moving to new house/ my brother on his job / my adik can read / etc )
but lets cut to the chase ,
TONIGHT IM THINKING OF THE WORD ''sentap''
as is said i ve been using my mind to think about reckless things,
as a mere living things
tipulah kalau aku tak pernah guna perkataan sentap ,
dan tipulah kalau aku tak penah sentap (( selalu uolls))
dan bagi aku , sentap ini boleh didefinisikan kepada:
1) MARAH
2) TERASA (( touchy feeling / butthurt ))
dan sambil berfikir tadi , aku rasa yang aku tak nak lagi guna perkataan sentap lagi untuk menanyakan perasaan seseorang because i think if someone asks me '' sentap ke ?'' and obviously im being sentap.com ... I LL GET MAD AND MY BLOOD PRESSURE WOULD SKY ROCKET AND MY FOREHEAD WOULD BE BERKERUT KERUT ,
all this because, i just instill in my head that asking someone
sentap ke ? is quite rude ,
it is just a foolish opinion , but i will try my very best not to use sentap ke .
i think it would be better if im asking someone feeling in oldschool way macam
1) '' kau marah aku ke? sorry ''
2) '' kau terasa ke ? ok sorry ''
3) '' ok sorry'' <--- ( ni kalau aku rasa bersalah pada kau tp pada masa yang sama aku tak tau kenapa kau nak emosional sangat padahal aku berlawak sambil bertanya soalan tapi serious aku rasa bersalah)
dan sudah pastinya aku memikirkan perkara ni apabila aku rasa bersalah apabila aku interprete someone's word yg mungkin , mungkin sangat tak suka pada aku dan sepertinya marah kepadaku kerana soalan yang tak patut ditujukan oleh aku kepada seseorang,
AND I ALMOST ALMOST REPLIED BACK WITH
SENTAP KE?
tapi mujur aku tak lakukannya sebab aku rasa itu biadap .
after all , asking for apology is better .
and im sorry for everything i said and did .
im learning for better me , better almahera .
MAAF untuk segalanya kalau kau tak selesa dengan aku
sebab aku pon tak selesa dengan aku but ill improve that .
ok bye .
TERIME KASIH,MEMBACA KISAH SUKESUKISEDIHSADISCACIMAKI SAYE
